Conversations

The whole family was there in Grandma's ICU room. My eyes were glazed over after a five day high, not thinking i went up to Tally and told her, "I'm done". With no concern in her eyes, she muttered "with what lori..". Then it just came out, " I've been high ." Tally just stood there, just thinking, right when i looked away, she raged, grasping my arm and pulled me out of the room with incredible strength. Whispering so no one could hear us, but at the same time with anger, she said "I can't fucking do this anymore, after everything we have been through, with Zach, me and you, i can not be here for you anymore." For the first time in days i felt emotion, anger, disappointment, and alone, "why?" i said. "Because, this has to be a superficial relationship now." I was trying not to cry, after she went back into the room i just fell down in tears, feeling guilt and sadness.